A PTO Day

Felt physically horrible this morning going into work, not sick just ugh is the best way to describe it. My boss asked me if had used all my PTO days because they reset tomorrow, I said I had one left and in response he said not to waste it and gave me the rest of the day off with in an hour of getting to work. It was awesome, I was able to turn in some important medical records, run a few more needed errands and work out the nasty feeling I had at the gym. then went and worked on a project I'm working to get finished soon. while working on it God should me a new way to mix some materials that was very helpful. then when I got home I had a reimbursement check for counseling, and it reminded me that I am in a place and have a job that provides inssurance so I can without cost, because of the full reimbursement checks, get the couseling I need right now for my depression and poor mind set. God does provide and love me, but Is till do not why it is so hard for me to acknowledge that and be confident in it in a life transforming way....